Renewal

 i found names on my spouses phone that dont sound like anyone I've even heard about and I found I wasn't curious they have autonomy i just wish theyd realize that I should have autonomy as well but I don't want to hurt A I wouldnt have found those if i didnt need to forward one of their messages to my phone. but by the same token, i didnt look at those messages maybe they were spicy maybe they were mundane doesn/t matter not my business. i dunno made me want to fuck the absolute fuuuuuuck out of you im sorry? not sorry?

 a plain and simple fucking pounding you until I use myself up. of course i would eat your pussy first make you cum hard but i have years of frustration that i need to fuck your pussy with and i know it will never happen i know you're gonna read this i hope you're stroking your clit when you do so does it get you wet to know  you still make me rock hard?

 if you intended to shatter my ego what if any I had left i could quote Bob Marley about making someone love you but i dont put too much stock by his words and it would be kinda disrespectful to you as well as putting words in your mouth i think my time would be better spent putting something else in your mouth and that is the rub isn't it you know, without a doubt that we couldnt be platonic I wish you would still be my friend I can desire you I can literally want to fuck you senseless and I can still just be friends with you and yes if A knew I would fry I figure  im not fucking you that has to count for something we were kinda arguing on errands today in kalamzoo and she made a  list that i lterally do most of and she will have some nonsense that makes it ok to load me up it will somehow be ok to do this to say she cant read my mind when i can feel that she has no desire i ..... im sorry i wish we could be more and i know that we cannot and it hurts

 and you are ok with it would we be able to fuck again? I miss more than just your soul and your laugh I miss your magical pussy as well i miss you in all the ways including the ways that make us cum