Renewal

 trying hard to stay in my lane, finally miss you i wish we were more than strangers maybe we are and always will be i guess maybe i just wish I was touching you again

 when I deleted the stuff as you requested that I must have felt cleansed and in that moment I told you  no, I felt it was the hardest thing to do because at that time it felt like it was the only link to you that I would ever have and I was right and wrong you're here in my heart but in a very real sense we were in an impossible situation loving you required that I show up and where I was, made it hard to do that certainly in any way that was needed by you I've spent years realizing I was teaching you what you didn't need and not enough of providing ... water... bridge.. weird midnight thoughts